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I AM NOT WHAT HAPPENED TO ME. I AM WHAT I CHOOSE TO BECOME.

Posted by Dee Harris on

“I am not what happened to me.  I am what I choose to become.”

 - Carl Jung

 

No one’s life follows a linear path.  No one’s life is devoid of mistakes, pain, and regret.  No one lives a perfect life.  No one is immune to some kind of struggle.  Everyone has something to work through.

So today, start where you are - not where you wish you were, but where you are.  I used to spend so much time beating myself up for choices I’d made.  Living in either the past or the future keeps me up in my head, out of reality, robbing me of the present.  

So today, I choose to live in the present.  My intention is to authentically be myself as I am today.  I try to stay conscious of not judging myself and others.  All that time and energy I spent in the past and future I can now spend on my family, my friends, my purpose, and my mission - in other words, my actual life.

This day offers each of us a chance to be the person we want to be.

From I’ve Been Thinking…Reflections, Prayers, and Meditations for a Meaningful Life by Maria Shriver

Dee:

Life is a journey, not a destination.  Right?  When I reflect on my 62 years on this planet I’ve had so many journeys, experiences, interactions.  I now know that each and every one of them was for a reason, were perfect at that very time in my life.  I am who I am today because of those chapters in my life.

It wasn’t until I was in my 40’s that everything changed…for the best.  Before then I was an active alcoholic.  I had no religion nor spirituality in my life.  I lived from my head and not from my heart.  I had no purpose and felt like a waste of space on the planet.

When I found that I could not go a day without drinking I talked to my dad in heaven and asked if he would help me.  My dad died of alcoholism.  We were not close.  I was afraid of him as a child.  But he helped me.  Soon thereafter I was in a 28-day treatment facility for alcoholism.  I was taught about the disease of alcoholism and Alcoholics Anonymous.

Those 28-days changed my life…for the best.  I realized that no matter how much I thought, how much of my will I put into not drinking, it wasn’t going to happen.  I was allowed to make up a god of my own understanding and turn my will and my life over to it.  I was taught to live from my heart and not my head.  And I found that I was not alone.  There was a fellowship of like-minded people, like me, working to live a better and sober life.

I no longer look in the mirror and hate myself.  I have learned to love myself and be comfortable in my own skin.  Working the 12 Steps of Alcoholics Anonymous has shown me that alcohol was just a symptom of my disease.  I learned what makes Dee tick and how to shed the defects that didn’t serve me.  I have been given a toolbox for living.  I learned to trust myself and others by being rigorously honest.  I learned to ask for help and to be there for those in need.

Turning my life over to a Higher Power has been such a gift.  Today I have a purpose of sharing my experience, strength and hope with whomever enters my bubble with whatever issues that ail them.  I can be mindful and respectful and make eye contact and listen.  I can show compassion and give comfort.  

Today I can live in the moment without regrets of the past nor fear of the future.  The present is all I have and all I have to do is be the best I can be.  Not perfect.  Just the best I can be.  I don’t have to impress you.  I can be me.  I love being me.  I love allowing my god to be in control and know that I am protected and guided through this journey called life.  Yes, all along there was a purpose for me that I would have never realized had I not been an alcoholic.  A grateful one at that.

Please love yourself for who you are.  Don’t compare yourself and your life with those around you or those in the limelight.  Love yourself and your unique gifts that none of us has.  YOU have them!  Share them.  Use them to make this world a better place and to give hope and optimism to those who enter your bubble.  You’re perfect just the way you are…right here…right now! and know that everything happens for a reason.

Aloha, Dee Harris

For those interested in Art with a Message of Hope and Optimism, please visit my website at www.DeesignsByHarris.com.  Mahalo and have a great day!


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